God sent me to Japan for a reason; to grow in character and discover some more of my identity in Christ Jesus.
Today for the first time in my life, a person outside of church, outside of KCM, a friend I made on my internship, a friend that I just found out was Christian today, blessed me and thanked me for my boldness for Christ and my help in allowing her to realize why God sent her to Japan.
How amazing it is to find another member of the body of Christ!
Today I presented my life mission to the interns and the students. It was my first time presenting to the whole group. Maybe I was nervous, maybe I was unprepared, but my presentation was a total shipwreck. Unorganized was the first aspect; spontaneous ideas spitting out of my mouth was another. Friends afterwards told me that I should do stand up comedy because it was so ridiculously funny. But for some reason, I just kept saying things that I didn’t really prepare to say beforehand, during my presentation. Perhaps the LORD sensed the hearts of His people in the crowd and was using the Holy Spirit to tell me what to say. I said many things that the company I work for would probably wish I hadn’t said; but I said much truth and honesty to the children and interns that it’s almost impossible to find a concrete answer to life. We always change. We never know what truly is going to happen. I confessed to everyone that I was probably maybe going to do fashion, but I also had a chance that I would change and be led to do something else. And that my major was kind of inapplicable to me because it was so broad; I could technically do whatever I wanted with it. One thing for sure was that I was the most passionate and bold that I had been yet in the past few weeks I have been presenting. I really elaborated on Christ this time. I really elaborated on my family’s non-profit, my missionary background, and my Christian passions. My presentation didn’t have much education and much information on my majors; but it had raw passion and experience that came from my heart.
Afterwards, my friend Amy approached me and asked to talk more with me about my life mission. She explained to me that she had a friend who was doing the same thing I was; she had gone on many missions and was also trying to work in fashion. But Amy herself explained to me that she was struggling with her faith, wondering why God had sent her to the country of Japan soon after graduating from college. She had explained that she had always been on the waitlist for things; not necessarily getting the internships and jobs she had applied for and waited for. She was frustrated with her position, and explained that she had only been offered this internship. She didn’t know why she was sent to Japan.
I briefly replied to her that I had felt the same way. I didn’t know why I was sent to Japan and why I was in Japan, even when I had really wanted to go to Japan before and was even a Japanese major. I told her how I had been reluctant about leaving home, church, family, and friends, and a summer that I could enjoy, relax, worship, and have fellowship. And then I told her how I recently realized that it was so selfish. I told her how I realized that enjoying my summer at home would have only benefitted me, myself, and I. But after being in Japan, I realized that people in Japan needed to hear about Jesus. I couldn’t explain my identity and allow others to get to know me without explaining my substance; which is Jesus Christ. So I realized that God had sent me here to do exactly that, inspire others with my love of Jesus. To encourage a newer audience with my faith. To give people who really need it, an encounter and taste of how good He is.
After, we parted briefly with plans to go to church together on Sunday.
And then while I was at home, surfing the web as usual, she messaged me saying this: